yeeeeeeppppp
I’m tired. I would say i need a vacation but that means it eventually has to end. So that won’t help. What to do, what to do.
The problem with sex is selfrespect - calibration the orgasm serves as your validation… and the problem with love, is that it lives in a book now the problem with drugs is that theyre too fucking good now the problem with logic is theres too many loopholes and the problem with truth is that it’s usually brutal the problem is I can’t trust most of what I see so Fuck it! …all the problems of life must be me!
Today
Is the day to start fresh. Past two weeks haven’t been the best. I’ve been lazy, i haven’t been exercising or eating the best. Today we start fresh. I’m going to be strict. Work out exactly to my plan and eat exactly to my plan. No more half assing. No staying up late when i know i have to get up early. Body needs rest in order to keep up with me. Few other things i’ll be changing too just to improve myself as a person as well. As always things are going to be amazing. Love my life and its only going to get better. Going to be a better friend and a better person. HERE WE GO!
-I’m going to be the change I want to see.
Damn
Who knew i had emotions like this. I haven’t felt like this in years. I guess I’m not as invincible as i thought. Oh well, just going to have to turn it into motivation. Maybe hit my punching bag to relieve stress.
Motivation, goals, and life
Where to start….Motivation! Where does my motivation come from? I really have no idea, I guess it’s the desire to be something amazing. To be the best that I can be. It all comes from within. Well most of it….lol a small portion comes from the silly notion of thinking I need to be a certain way or look a certain way to get certain things. But that’s the smallest of it all. Without the endless self-determination and motivation I wouldn’t be able to come close to my goals.
And with that being say Goals is next. Lots of goals I don’t know where to start. Fitness goals since that’s one of my main priorities. Short term…continue my marathon training. Mid term…run a marathon in about 3-4 months. Long term…run an ultra marathon (50-100) miles within the next few years. Also want to attempt to reach 10% body fat. Mostly because I feel like it would be a great personal achievement to reach that level of excellence. And cuz I want a girl to just say “damn he’s hot”. Lol it’s silly but it’d be nice. That’s just a bonus though. I’m just excited to keep running though. I love it, I feel so good during and after, I wish I had someone to share with. Career goals. Stop getting written up and get my ass back into town and stop working at Primm. Also need to get back to school. Hopefully by fall I’ll be able to register.
Now It’s all about life. Tricky subject. Honestly I can’t complain. I mean what’s there to complain about. I have the best friends anyone could ask for. Countless of them are willing to do anything for me and I the same for them. Many of them are my family since I have no blood family. Most of my guys I’ve known for 6 years or more. Viet….my little brother. We’ve known each other for 14 years now and I see us being friends till the day we die. Then there’s the new friends. I’ve been making quite a few lately. They all good people. Wish I had more time to hang out with them all. Some have already become family and some are on the right path to being family. Adopted a few more little sisters lol. There’s the giraffe, she’s a special one, I’m glad I can be of help. And there’s the Padawan, she’s learning but still had a long way to go. The original sister, the squirrel lol she’s a handful plus more but what are you gonna do. I love them all and I just hope I can help them get to that happiness that I have. Same goes for all my family. That’s what I’m here for. To do whatever I can to help everyone achieve happiness in their life. I wish some of them would hang out with me more but we all busy so it is what it is. NBD. No big deal.
I think that’s it lol. That’s a doozy son!
